Profuse Pain

It is never as it seems,

and even though it can be happening right in front of you,

you can export experience into other realms,

and suddenly it isn't so bad,

and who would actually be so numb, dumb...

pain disguises, in darkness, and secrecy,

never so blatant and bold, because it doesn't want to be discovered,

But I keep forgetting, pain feeds denial.

And the two fuse,

as anti-matter and organics,

exploding into soundwaves, deafening the universe.

Where did it come from? more importantly how does it end.